What??

I am about tired of my health issues. I really am. I went see my cardiologist yesterday and was informed now my protien is real low. I am like what??? I already can't eat red meat or pork and now she is saying I need to lay off the carbs.

I am slowly dwindling down to eating nothing. I will have no choice but to lose weight as I will be existing on nothing but air. I was so depressed yesterday, I came home and went to bed. Just when you think you are doing all the right things, now I have to deal with this.

I wish I could turn back time and go back to when I had nothing wrong with me. I remember I used to brag, b/c I am the only overweight sibling and all the rest of my siblings have high blood pressure. I would long to have just that now.

Stef

Feeling Great!

Yes, I am feeling great today. I went for a 45 minute brisk walk after dinner. For dinner I had 6 turkey meatballs, a cup of egg noodles and heinz fat free gravy with peppers and onions. Awesome meal and low in points. The meatballs were only 4 points. I was just in the grocery store and it just came in my head to cook this. I have been eating tuna fish everyday for lunch and sometime of seafood every other day for dinner. I realize after looking at my past menus I don't eat much fish or shrimp. So I am trying to incorporate more of that in my diet. Not doing it to see results on the scale, but making a lifestyle change for me.

I learn something new everyday in this journey. I am going through this with an open mind. I don't know everything. If I did, I would not be obese.

Stef

I missed It!

Yes, I missed Weigh In. I overslept. I really overslept. My WI is not until 10:00am and I did not wake up until 11:15 and that is only b/c my daughter got a phone call and was laughing real loud. My hubby said I needed the rest. I guess I did. I did not go to bed late, yet I rested and to be honest I still am tired. It is time for my period, maybe that is it.

I guess I better do like I said, and listen to my body. I have devoted the rest of the day to pampering myself. I gave myself a pedicure and manicure. Later I am going to deep condition my hair and set it on some rollers.

I am sitting her yawning as we speak, so off to lay it down.

Stef

It's Me!

Several days ago, I posted the topic that was in my WW meeting. It was Roadblock and distractions. MZFIT asked me to give a little bit more insight into that. Well I have thought about it for and thought about it and my main roadblock and distraction is "ME". I control my weight loss destiny. I control what goes in my mouth and wether or not I excercise. This said I got my butt into gear today and pushed myself when I worked out this morning. MZFIT, I would like to say thanks for making look at this issue a little more closely than I was.

I watch the tv show, I lost it and it amazes me at how some of these people are on WW and how quickly they lost the weight, but when I think back on it, they all went about it the same way.
They made losing weight a priority and they did not go about it half ass. They exercised daily (and still do) and are very conscious about what they eat. They were fed up and put themselves first. I realize I have not done this. Yes, I am in the game, but I am not in the game fully. As of today, I am putting myself first and I am getting into the game completely.

I will exercise daily, I will make better food choices and I will stop the excuses. I have 64 more pounds to lose until I reach my goal. I vow to do everything in my power to make better lifestyle decisions to bring myself closer to where I want to be.

Stef

Busy Week!

Whew, I have been really busy this week. My hubby's bday was Wednesday and I have been running all week. I took a couple of days off of work to spend with him and I am paying for it. I have kept up with my exercise, but did not make the best food choices this week. I recognize that and I am moving on from it.

Well I am exhausted until next time.

Stef

Second WI

I was down another .4 at weigh in this week. I am happy with that. I am happy with anything the scale says, only because it is not my main focus anymore.

I can fit into XL shirts and I can't fit size 24's anymore, that is progress. I am on my way to my summer goal. My goal for the summer is to be in a size 18 by Labor Day and I am pushing for that.

Had a awesome meeting. The leader talked about roadblocks and distractions and such. It really got me to thinking about my eating habits in the evening. I am going to have to get better control of them. A lady made lifetime today and brought in her before picture, I was amazed and inspired at the same time. She was roughly my size and she is like a size 8 now. She looks like a complete different person. I am soo looking forward to that.

Well off to finish dinner (chops and green beans) and to workout.

Stef

Pushing Myself!

Well I have been doing good exercise wise, not so good with the food. I have been pushing myself. I realize that I try and hold back, so this week I am not taking my second water aerobis class and I am going to hit the treadmill. I need a better workout and this will do it. I actually did something called the 10 10 10 workout last night. I liked it. It really pushed me. My abs were screaming and shaking (lol). My body is probably like what is she doing to me.

I am going to try and do better on the food. I have 3 days until weigh in. I had a compliment yesterday. One of co-workers told me that "The working out is really paying off". In my mind I was like "yeah" that is what I am talking about. It feels so good to finally see a payoff on this.

It has a been a long journey and I am not even halfway there. I have a long way to go, but I will get there. I am not stopping until I get there and even then I will always be on WW. I will always attend meetings ( I just won't have to pay). That itself is pushing me. $39.95 is not breaking the bank, but to not have to pay it. I can't wait.

Stef

1st June WI!

I lost. Yes I lost. I lost 1.6 pounds! Yaa for me. It seems if I take my focus off the scale and onto exercise and staying OP the weight comes off. I was really good yesterday. Matter of fact I was good all week. I have a plan with my exercise and with my eating plan and its going to be alright.


Stef

Trainer Day!

Met with the trainer for this first time today. She is awesome. Not too pushy and gave me a lot of kudos on what I have accomplished so far. It was just what I needed. My hubby is still not happy with my decision to get the weight off and it is being hard just being around him. He makes a comment about it on a daily basis now. At first I thought he was joking, but I see that he is not. I really think it comes from him being insecure. But not my problem, its his. I don't think he realizes that he really is pushing me. When he gets on his soapbox, I leave and go to the gym or go walking and that is just bringing me closer to my goal.

Back to my trainer, did I say she was awesome. She said I need to workout 5 days a week. I will do water aerobics for two days and the other three I will do cardio and abdominal exercises. She put me on the machine and it kicked my butt. I have to do 3 sets of twelve. I did it and I now feel it. I have to that every other day.

I am so excited now. She told me not to be discouraged about the scale, focus on my body and how that looks and that is what I am going to do.

Well weigh in is tomorrow and I am not nervous or anything. I might be down, I might be up, but I will be okay with either one. I know that I am following the program and I am exercising and I am wearing smaller clothes and overall that will keep me motivated.

Stef

Another Day!

Well here we are 3 days into the month and I can tell you, I was really getting fustrated. They have canceled my water aerobics two days in a row. At this point I am supposed to be at 110 minutes of excercise instead of just 60. I was really ready to throw in the towel on trying to get in 45 minutes today and I said "Stef" what are you doing? This is not you. You have come so far. So I went to exercise on demand and did a 3 mile brisk walk and I feel so much better now.

I guess when they I hear people saying how hard it is to keep the weight off, I understand. I have at least 70 more pounds to goal and I am already having self induced setbacks. I realize I have to be stronger, I have to reach my goal.

Stef