Weight Watchers

Awhile ago I toyed with the idea of joining WW. Well last Thursday I did. I didn't realize how horribly I ate even thinking I was cutting back on calories. I was still way over and I wonder why the scale really wasn't moving.

One thing I notice is I have to get my snacking under control. It is horrible. I am on day 5 being as they say "On Plan" and I am impressed with the New WW.  I get it. It promotes protein and gives you high points for sugary foods. Nice concept. I am enjoying it.

I have made a promise to myself to see this journey through to the end. I have set a mini goal. First mini goal is have lost 10 pounds by March 1st and I am going to hit it.

Until Next Time
Ciao

Journey!

My heart is so full right now. This journey to be healthy can sometimes be overwhelming. It has its ups and downs, its highs and lows and a lot of pitfalls. It will sometimes have you questioning relationships. Have you doubting yourself and others. Even though you know deep inside that it might not be true and you just might be seeing things off kilter a little bit.

Some people who don't have a weight problem will never understand what you are going through. Yes, they might have other problems or even addictions, but no 2 problems are the same.

In the last week I have struggled to find my voice because sometimes when I do, it is often met with criticism or harsh judgement, leaving me feeling cold and empty and wishing I had kept my thoughts private.

I have a lot of mind and I am hoping with time comes peace and clarity.

Until next time.

Ciao!

Mindless eating

I am coming off such a high from this weekend and some lows.  I always knew I was over weight, morbidly obese even, but never saw it as a big hindrance. Yes, I know it did get in the way of me doing some things, but never like it smacked me in the face this weekend.

My sister had a party celebrating her 45th birthday and I walked the entire mall and could not find tights to fit me. Yeah, they had plus size tights, just not my plus size.  I was crushed, my feelings were hurt and I was devastated, but most of all embarrassed.  My poor husband walked the mall with me and never said a word. I think the expression on my face said it all.

This is another wake up call to stop the mindless eating and start the eating to live. Start the exercising to live. Why, because I want to live.

Signed,
Not giving up.

Ciao

Thinking instead of just eating.

I am in such a good mood. I could not finish my plate. That has been happening more and more. I am listening to my body and getting to a comfortable place with my eating. I am not piling food on top of food on my plate. I am balancing out my portions and I am liking it. I noticed that I used to eat past my place of comfortable on to a place of being "stuffed", which we all know is not a good feeling.

I am also noticing that because I have started this journey over (again), I am very, how do I say it, emotional about it. I am letting things people do and say bother me in reference to what I can and can't accomplish. Yes, people your biggest supporters can also be your worst critics.  I don't think they intend to do it, just that some people don't realize just because you think it you don't have to say it. I am guilty of that sometimes myself. 

Sometimes I sit and visualize a smaller me or I remember a past me that was a different size and I think, I can be that girl. I am going to be that girl. No one can do it for me. I have to do it for myself.
I didn't get to this size over night and it is not going to go away over night. I will have set backs. I will have struggles, but I will NOT give up on ME.

Well nighty night

Ciao

Life..

So much has happened since my last post. Some good and some bad, but as they say, that is life. Well here I am starting over once again. I have to ask myself why do I keep doing this over and over again. What is my problem?? Why can't I stick with anything and be consistent and get to goal? That is what I am going to spend the next few weeks getting to the bottom of. I have to figure out why and conquer this.

I am back counting my steps, tracking what I eat on myfitness pal and holding myself accountable for my actions. Best of all, I am back blogging. I love writing. It is a passion of mine that I don't indulge in. Why you ask? Well, that is another thing I am going to have to get to the bottom of. I know they say you change as you get older and things rarely stay the same, but I have to ask myself why am I not doing the things I love, the things I enjoy. Why am I always putting everyone first and myself last? 

I will get answers to all these questions. So stick with me, while I figure this here thing called my life out. Enjoy the ride.

Until next time,
Ciao!

Doing it on my own!

I am kinda upset at myself for not updating this blog regularly. I have taken pictures of what I have eaten, but not posted them. I have written down my thoughts about my weight on certain days, but did not post that either.

Well here is an update, I have currently lost 32 pounds doing Curves Complete. I have now switched to MyfitnessPal and I also have a Jawbone Up24.  Overall, I am happy about my progress, but I know it could be better. The carb cravings are killing me, so I am slowly letting go of the amount of them I eat. I did a 14-day Plant based food challenge earlier this month, where I ate 2 meals of just veggies and fruit and such and one meal with meat. I don't eat pork and haven't eaten beef in a little over a month so that left just chicken, fish, seafood and turkey. I can say I did feel the difference. I felt like I had more energy overall.  I can see myself eating more like this and I truly enjoyed comping up with different meal plans. One big difference is I crave vegetables all the time. For breakfast, lunch, dinner and snacks. I love them. I have also, expanded what vegetables I eat.

Well that is it for now.

Ciao!

Still at it, but adding exercise.

Well, it is day 7 of the New Year and I am still going strong. I am focused, energized and pumped. I am loving this journey that I am on. It has taken me years to figure out that the only person in my way is me. Tomorrow is weigh in day and what ever happens I am ready to face it. I know that there will not be a loss every week. There will be some gains, there will be some weeks where I will not lose anything. There will be some days I will cry, I will have to force myself to get up and exercise, I have will have to force myself to make the right eating choices and to get the water down, but I will do it. I will make it, I will finish. I will see goal!

Until next time,

Ciao!

Starting again...

Well here I am back on this journey one more time. I am determined to not stop this time. I have started using a weight loss coach thru curves. We meet once a week and I weigh in and we discuss any issues that I have may be having. My head is so far in this. I can actually pin point why the other times I did not find success. It was me. Plain and simple. No long drawn out explanation. Just me getting in the way of me. Well, this time I have moved out the way and I am focused and driven.

Until next time.

Ciao!

Loving those NSV's.

I didn't realize it has been almost a month since the last time I blogged. I have to do better. I have started back reading and doing a little writing and I am thinking that is where my time is going. I have decided to weight myself twice a month. Once at the beginning and once at the end. I am not going to be a slave to the scale anymore. I am going to measure inches lost, things I am able to do and stuff like that.

I took some 1 month progress pics and although it doesn't look like a lot but I see a small change and I am happy about it. Also, I have had two people who I haven't seen in a while tell me I look like I am shrinking.  Gotta love that.

I am officially back in love with exercise. I missed it. I have started back going to water aerobics and Zumba. I am enjoying creating new food ideas. Plain and simple, I am losing the extra weight and enjoying the journey.

Until next time,

Ciao!

My first NSV!

Today was measurement day and I was so happy to see that I lost 1.5 inches around my waist and 2inches off my top portion above my belly button where my hernia was. It really made my day. My hubby was the first person I shared it with. I went over my calorie intake for the day, but I planned for it. I ate light the other days and I will eat light for the rest of the week. I am hoping to incorporate some walking next week.

Until Next Time.

Ciao!